What do you see when you see me.....blogpost by Tammy Konneker

What do you see when you see me? Few of us go through life wondering how we are perceived by those around us. I've thought alot about that lately, as my pastor reminds me that people see how we handle adversity in our lives....people are watching those of us that call ourselves Christ followers. What will we do when our world is turned upside down by circumstances that are beyond our control? What do we become when we are hurt or insulted by someone around us? What does our day to day life say of our love and devotion to a God that sent his son to take away my sin and your sin. I choose joy! I choose to praise God in the good and in the bad. Job said in Job 6:10 "then I would still have this consolation-my joy in unrelenting pain-that I had not denied the words of the Holy One."

I want to show in and through my life that no matter what this world throws at me that I never gave up on the promises God has given me. Promises of life.....everlasting life. Promises of prosperity....oh, not in what the world sees as prosperity....but that my life was prosperous, that the way I lived my life made positive and impactful changes in those around me. That just as Solomon had asked God for wisdom in 1 Kings 3:9.....not for wealth, nor for revenge upon his enemies but for wisdom to do the right things and make wise decisions...God granted Solomon with his request. I don't need wealth....I need wisdom. I don't need health.....I need strength to persevere under poor health. I don't need recognized.....I need to know that God is recognized through me.

When I look in that mirror....I see what most people see. I see my past mistakes, I see my past pain, I see someone broken but rebuilt by the grace of God. I see someone that has totally surrendered to God and said "your will be done in my life" and I live day to day knowing that his will is the only thing I need to prevail in this life until I join him in eternal life. For what we see in our reflection is far from what God see's in our reflection. He see's the potential that he's given to us, he see's the love that we so often fail to show, he see's goodness and grace. Perhaps its time we start to see ourselves as God see's us....perfect and pleasing in His eye.